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|Thursday, March 19th, 2009|
|I really hate Africa a lot right now
This paper is killing me. Actually, I am literally having a mental breakdown here. I don't know what my prof wants, just what she doesn't want and I STILL have no idea what to do with the text I have to analyse. Seriously, i am ready to tear my own eyes out. I have never been this frustrated in my life. I literally CANT THINK OF A TOPIC. I have spent all week researching various topics and not coming up with a response. none. I can't think of what to do and the essay is due tuesday and I'm at nats all weekend, so i have to do it tonight even though Ispent all week trying to come up with a decent topic. Just a topic! Seriously????>?>??????????????
I really need a hug, or a prozak or something.
I hate Africa. So much. Especially Zambia.
|Sunday, August 12th, 2007|
This is weird. The whole time I worked (before i quit) i was never offered a training shift in cash or projection or, anything really. Now this is more the gist of what i've beeen hearing:
Last week (Laura): I want to train you in cash
This week i trained in cash
Thursday (Krysta and Kayla): wow, great preclose. nice looking fries. i'll punch you in the face if you quit.
Yesterday (Laura): next year when you're 18 do you maybe want to be an assistant manager (where did that come from????? oh the randomness)
Today (me): will you consider me for fries team leader?
(kayla): yes! you are already being considered! You are on a short list of potential Team Leaders!
If this sounds like bragging, trust me, its not. I'm just confused. Where did this come from?
|Wednesday, March 14th, 2007|
|Get that darn monkey off my back!!!!
Well, I have officially forgiven all but one person involved in this whole...situation...thingy. That's probaby due to the fact that she hasn't even talked to me yet. Maybe she's too busy wallowing in self pity.
Anyway, I'm about to take a big risk tommorow with the whole Darfur thing. Wish me luck! Current Mood: worried
|Tagged by Healer
1) One book that changed my life:
Non-Violence (this is a history of the philosophy of non-violence and its links to every religion. It is very good and can be found in the International Political Science section)
2) One book you have read more than once:
Eragon - but hey, y'all already knew that.
3) One book you would want on a desert island:
Digital Fortress -Dan Brown
4) One book that made me laugh:
Midsummer Night's Dream - you have to admit that play was funny...
5) One book that made me cry:
lots... Harry Potter. Not gonna lie.
6) One book you wish had been written:
7) One book you wish had never been written:
8) One book you are currently reading:
Dances With Wolves
9) One book you have been meaning to read:
The Other Boleyn Girl (Kirt is currently raving about it) also Pride and Prejudice
I TAG: kcatt Current Mood: content
|"Hate the sin, love the sinner"
I think I've used this quote before. The point is, I am tired of the ugliness of this week, and am just plain ready to move on. Let him be childish if he wants. I obviously did something wrong in my leadership to invoke this. I'll try to change for the good of the committee.
'Cause when it comes down to it, it really is all about the suffering in Darfur. I don't care about the glory or the power, I just want to make a difference. Can't we just put aside our differences and focus on that?
I spent too many hours crying yesterday and last night. But hey; anyone who knows me knows that I bounce back. And I have and I am stronger, smarter and more strategic than before. I won't be making the same mistakes again.
In the past day, I have learned skills that most people won't know until they're 35, and some will never learn.
So I say-- Thank you to everyone who made me suffer. It has given me something very rare and difficult to find. I am a better leader because of it. It has given me wisdom.
I am wise enough to know that I can't trust everybody.
I am wise enough to know when to keep my mouth shut.
I am wise enough to know that concealing my true opinions is usually best.
I am wise enough to know when I am wrong.
I am wise enough to know who my friends are.
I am wise enough to know that this will pass.
I am wise enough to know when I need to take the morning off.
I am wise enough to know I can't break when people depend on me.
I am wise enough to know when I have been beaten.
I am wise enough to know to be mad at actions and not people.
I am wise enough to know to ask for help.
I am wise enough to know that I am not at all wise. Current Mood: determined
|Wednesday, March 7th, 2007|
|2 pages to go!!!!!
|Printers are WAAAAAAAAY too slow
3 more stupid packages to go. It's 11:26, I want to sleep.
*rocks back and forth in the fetal position* Current Mood: exhausted
|"Hate the sin, love the sinner"
This week i have been working really hard to make the Dinner for Darfur happen. There is so much to do. It took Dayna and I 3 hours to get through all of the committees, but we made A LOT of progress. Right now I'm waiting for committee packages to print. They are 8 pages long each, with very nice pictures, I have to say.
It was so difficult to get anything done tonight since I have 4 msn conversations going on at once.
Kaitlyn wanted to tell me all about the African band she found (which is really awesome, and I totally love their song Rwanda. They are called Souljah Fyah- you all should hear the song)
Bruce wanted to talk about Facey Idol and his Imagine project, which is WAAAY better than mine.
This weird guy from debate wanted to hit on me and ask me about tattoos.
Dayna and I were attempting to work on the committee stuff over the computer.
All I can say is that I am EXHAUSTED.
I can't wait for Friday to come. Of course, then I have to work on the Banquet all weekend (basically).
The good thing? I feel really appreciated. Kaitlyn said that she really admired me for seeing a problem and actually doing something to stop it. That really got to me. It's a good feeling. Current Mood: everywhere at once
|Sunday, January 28th, 2007|
Guess who is teaching classes by herself on tuesdays starting tuesday?
I'm scared. I don't even know which levels I'm teaching yet, 'cause they're still juggling the schedule around. Basically I'm gonna get to the pool tuesday and wing it. The lessons, i mean. Good thing I bought a new swimsuit. I guess.
|Tuesday, January 16th, 2007|
|KLC- Corny, but true
Today I crossed off one of the things that I absolutely, positively had to do before I died, and probably my most important childhood dream was realised.
I work at the Kinsmen Leisure Center.
I got my uniform today, you know, it's amazing how much I looked forward to wearing the kinsmen shirt and shorts and being part of the kinsmen clan and finally being a part of the group that I always idolized.
I feel very fulfilled right now.
Let me rant some more, please. I promise I will eventually shut up about this.
I am wearing the shorts now, and I feel special. (side note: Tyler Hannaman just got hired at Kinsmen too, FYI) I got my little flourescent whistle and toured the staff room and the treatment center and pretty soon I'll have my own mail slot thingy. I would have got to tour the staff change rooms, but right now they are being renovated.
We got briefed about all kinds of exciting programs and scary responsibilities and fun inservices and contests. I think I'm really going to enjoy this job, if I don't screw it up.
I'm so excited to start working at kinsmen, to be a part in shaping the lives of children, to work with amazing people, to have the best part time job I could possibly get.
I tell you, all of my hard work was so worth it, if even for the way I feel right now. You know, people talk about instances that age you, and I think this is one of them. But unlike the others, this is a good feeling.
The great thing is, there is a little kid learning to swim right now that is dreaming of being just like me.
And someday they will be.
And it will be so worth it. Current Mood: fulfilled
|Wednesday, December 27th, 2006|
K, i hope that picture worked. I never knew that you could add pictures to your lj posts, so this is just a random picture.
Yesterday I went to this webpage http://www.911weknow.com
that showed all of the stuff that the official reports of 911 left out and basically proved that it was a controlled demolition that was (and this is only their theory, though there is motive and means, so...) planned by the new building leaseholder (who just happened to change the insurance policy to include acts of terror about 6 weeks before the "attack") and involving George Bush's cousin and brother, who were involved in the set up of a new security system for the world trade center something like 6 months before the attacks. If you have 90 minutes to spare, I suggest you visit this website, or you could just ask me for more details.
My whole family (except for me) was asleep all yesterday, so it was either the computer or tv downstairs for 6 hours or so. Current Mood: suspicious
|Sunday, December 24th, 2006|
I hate being sick
It's even worse when your sister keeps you up half the night with her coughing.
Throw in cleaning and making food for christmas and you get...
Hell in a handbasket. (lol, that's from Ocean's 11...teehee)
Oh, and the guy I like is going out with Carlyn McGean. *sighs* Figures. Current Mood: crushed
|Wednesday, November 29th, 2006|
|I've Read Damian's Will ~ An Original Poem
Undecided before the lightning strike
What lies in my heart; now only strife
For ever ending downhill of life
And love scorn friendship; though friendship delight
And ne’er ending fruitless hope
Leave nothing with which my heart may cope
Oh sneer whilst your fond soliloquay
For knowledge it leads not to me
And gelous eyes stare past your gaze
Though perception leaves it at blank gaze
Flying in heavy, sulfur air
With naught strength to muster but aimful stare
Weep not when your soul sees it’s mindless deed
Nor sob, but do this warning take heed
Of chickens and hatchlings and counting still
It’s better without always than with to nill Current Mood: poetic
|Tuesday, November 28th, 2006|
Dias!! Hey, Di? We're apparently going to make u sal-ites wear funny hats. So...do you want red or white? lol, jk! I might be moderating you though, so....be nice!
|Monday, November 27th, 2006|
OOOH! Good day!
Chemistry= 92% on my test, which brings my mark up to a lovely 80%, just in time for this years "easy unit".
MUN= November 30 is all day MUN fun!
Swim= 5th for Fly, 8th for 100 breast, 12th for 100 IM, 14th for 200 IM (open)
Speech= 1st place! 1st place! 1st place! Who rocks? Who rocks? Who rocks? That's me. Teehee.... Current Mood: satisfied
|Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006|
I solved my duck problem. About 30 minutes ago.
|Monday, November 20th, 2006|
|Speech Against a Liberal Bill (More interesting than it sounds)
My first problem with this bill is the caffeine tax. For instance, chocolate contains caffeine. Does the Liberal party propose to tax every candy bar that someone buys? And for that matter, what about halloween? What good is it to tac buyers for a substance that they aren't even going to eat? It's ridiculous.
Besides, caffeine can be very beneficial. For example, studies have shown that caffeine intake- in LARGE quantities- reduced the risk of men to develop type 2 diabetes. Over the years, some 19 000 studies have looked at the health impact of drinking coffee. Tomas DePaulis, a research scientist at the Vanderbilt University Institute for Coffee Studies says, quote "Overall, the research shows that coffee is far more healthful than harmful. For most people, very little bad comes from drinking it, but a lot of good." His studies have shown that regular coffee drinkers can reduce their risk of Parkinson's disease by 80%, the risk of colon cancer by 25%, their risk of cirrhosis of the liver by 80% and cut the risk of gallstones in half.
Not to mention the blaitent human rights issues with clauses 4 and 5 and, concurrently, the definition of institutionalization, which I find far too broad. A "controlled environment" could refer to a mental hospital or- and here lies my concern- a JAIL CELL. Ultimately, were this bill to pass, a person could be pulled into jail for the rest of their life, simply for refusing to take pills. Heinous.
Yes, sleep deprivation IS a problem. Actually, this bill hits quite close to home for me. My father used to work in Fort MacMurray and drive straight from a 10 or 12 hour shift all the way to Edmonton. It worried myself and my mother terribly. That being said, penalties are NOT the way to help! My proposition is that we get a better transit system between Fort MacMurray and other urban areas of Alberta, or offer airline discounts to those workers. This way, people can see their families without sacrificing money or safety.
|Floating on Clouds of Joy
Alright, that is a little bit of an exaggeration. Maybe jumping on pieces of grass of slighty-better-than-normal-but-not-quite-j
'Cause I'm a good actress. Apparently.
I also thrive off of attention, it seems. So there's the downside to all this. Why should one comment please me so much? I don't get it. Oh well.
|Thursday, November 9th, 2006|
My apologies to all who had to experience my 'bout of random depression. But I'm good now *thumbs up*
I love having awesome grade 11s to mentor/encourage/laugh with me, not at me (k, maybe just a little bit at me). It feels very nice, if a little strange. But it makes me more nervous for my play at the same time. I'm afraid of messing up and looking like a total moron in front of everyone; how they won't say anything, but will be thinking it all the same. It's pressure I'm creating, i think.
I'm also afraid of going into drama 30 next year and being the outcast, or not fitting into the group well.
Just a little of my worriesome nature coming out, i guess. But I really think our play is going to stink up the Drama room with it's horrid-ness.
Poor Mr. Frank, though. He has to fix some major, unexpected problems and deal with a class he hates and a student teacher all at once, while trying to prepare for Grease. I have a feeling his patience will be wearing very thin... Current Mood: worried
Um...Detroit won 3-0. And...my love life is SOL
Stupid boys and their stupidity.
On the other hand, Greg in a suit...hilarious! Current Mood: gloomy